Every year I attempt to capture what I perceive to be a direction or awareness for my new year of living that Heaven is suggesting. This year is no different, though it wasn't really one I wanted to hear until afterwards. Unlike previous birthdays, this one had only one main thing to do - uproot myself to a new city in less than a month. It was highly inconvenient, uncomfortable, imposing on my time, unsettling, expensive, and irritating! And later, I discovered I was stressed out without even being consciously aware of it. This was the setup to my birthday. Ha! Yet after the relocation and the follow-up of unpacking and stabilizing, I was marinating in a fulfilled feeling that completely eclipsed everything that stressed me pre-move. And in that moment, I had my A-ha moment.
In this new year of living, I am stepping out of my comfort zone and facing my fears. I am giving myself permission to be uncomfortable and face panic. It is okay. And in facing my fears, it is okay whatever the end result is. The goal is to try it, and be content with the end result, whatever it is. In this new year of living, I am not trying to be what you want me to be. The fear of disrupting your approved image of me is one I going to face.
It appears this is going to be a year to look discomfort in the eye, and dare to do things my way. The scripture that resonates to affirm this is;
"The wind blows wherever it pleases, you hear it sound but cannot tell where it comes from, or where it is going. This is how it is with all who are born of the Spirit" - John 3:8
A second awareness that I received was in reading the birthday well-wishes. I noticed a lot of young men calling me Daddy. Did I realize I am a father to folks? It just hit me that this new year of living, I need to own this without apology, and receive the commensurate unction by faith to operate in that capacity.
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