Tuesday, March 20, 2018

"Praise Is What I Was Born To Do" (New Single)

"Praise is what I was born to do" is a ballad I wrote in 2007. I had just survived from a suicide attempt, was homeless on the street, and rehabilitating in a Christian rehab. I was at a point of having no idea what I was living for, and learning to rediscover who I was, what I was about, and my faith really was. I had made a covenant with God to start afresh after the epiphany I had in my dying experience (I wrote about this in my book The Covenant, available as paperback, ebook, and audiobook). Sitting there unsure of what my future had in store, unsure of my tomorrow, unsure if I would ever recover what I had lost, the only thing I had to hold on to what my faith in him. So I decided to write a song to express what I was feeling to Him. He was all I had.
This song was supposed to be my private moment with him, but then I decided to create it, and record it, so here it is.

Below is the Official Lyric Video. Please like/comment/share. 

It is available to download on all online digital music stores. Thank you for your support

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Sunday, February 11, 2018

The Covenant is now an Audiobook

It is official! The Covenant is now available as an audiobook! With narration by Don Kline, it is available to download at Audible, iTunes and Amazon.

The Covenant is a memoir addressing my struggles with multiple suicide attempts. It touches on my childhood molestation, abuse and rape, and the resulting aftermath of dysfunctions. It also touches on my coming through it. Being suicidal is a silent struggle that's not supposed to be talked about. Depression, and especially childhood molestation and abuse are experiences that are victimizing, and stigmatizing, so we often hide in shame with it. Hopefully as I share my story and experience, it would inspire someone to come out of that secrecy and shame, and cry out for help

Below is an excerpt from the book, talking about my travails with being molested and raped as a child, and the aftermath of it.

The Covenant is also available as Paperback and eBook on Amazon. Below is the Official Book Trailer for it

Monday, August 21, 2017

2017 Solar Eclipse - spiritual significance

"See here! The fury of God has been building and is too great to stop; the day of the Eternal is nearly here. It will come down in all its cruelty, fury, and fiery anger, to make the land a wasteland, to wipe out all who failed God. For the stars that define the constellations in the heavens will fail to give their light. The sun will go dark even when it’s high in the sky; the moon will not shine" - Isaiah 13:9&10

"In the heaven above and on the earth below, I will give signs of My intervention: blood, fire, and clouds of smoke. The sun will become a void of darkness, and the moon will become blood just before the great and dreadful day of the Eternal One arrives" - Joel 2:30&31

"The sun will become a void of darknessand the moon will become blood. Then the great and dreadful day of the Lord will arrive, and everyone who calls on the name of the Lord will be liberated into God’s freedom and peace" - Acts 2:20&21

Just a few scriptures to keep in mind as everyone gets all excited about this solar eclipse. If people who are not spiritually inclined are recognizing a major significance to this event, what about us who are of the Spirit? Listen to whatever the Spirit is speaking to you. He who has an ear, let him hear.

Saturday, June 17, 2017

Song of Destiny

"Song of Destiny" is a classical crossover song I wrote some years ago. I had watched a Josh Groban concert on TV, and was inspired to write something in that vein. I wanted something to inspire and uplift, a melody that built up into a crescendo. This is what I came up with.

I had tried several producers, and no one could quite get the vision of what I was going for. At one point I had almost given up - but that would have been working against the spirit of the song. It wasnt until I met Solomon Sparrow, who happened to be a seasoned musician, and worshiper, that I was able to completely birth this song out.

"Song of Destiny" is a clarion call to overcoming every obstacle life throws our way. We rise, we soar, we dominate!

It is available on iTunes, Amazon, and all major digital music outlets


I wasn't planning on releasing this EP; I had recorded the FREE music to share, but in the last minute decided to add the 3 FREE songs to my acapella arrangement of "God Rest Ye/O Come Emmanuel". With the vision I had, I explored the various music outlets out there, and Bandcamp turned out to be the best one to use to make an unofficial release.

Visit Bandcamp to stream and download the entire EP.

CDs also available

UNOFFICIAL is exactly what it is - an UNOFFICIAL release of music. It is me sharing my demo EP of an original arrangement of "God rest ye merry/O Come Emmanuel", plus 3 FREE additional covers in original interpretations.
Released May 25, 2017
1. Releases Me - A cover and remake of "Seduces Me" by Celine Dion. Produced by Javon 
2. Searching - A cover of "Searching for Love" by Bebe Winans Produced by David Scott 
3. Dear God - A remake of "Dear God" from The Color Purple. Arrangement and Backup vocals by Kenneth Tamara, Music by Matthew Porter Produced by Chris Rafetto 
4. God rest ye merry/O Come Emmanuel All vocals by Kenneth Tamara Arrangement by Kenneth Tamara Produced by Matthew Porter

Sunday, February 26, 2017

Psalm 23

I was reading Psalm 23 from The Voice bible translation, and some specific verses leaped out differently to me. So here's me sharing what it spoke to me.

He soothes my fears; He makes me whole again, steering me off worn, hard paths to roads where truth and righteousness echo His name (Verse 3)

He does the soothing of your fears. You don't have to psyche yourself, or do some mental trick, or emotional regime. You simply depend on Him to soothe whatever fear that's plaguing you.
He makes you whole again. Any area of your life where you are or feel less than, he infuses wholeness.
He steers you off that tired path of life, that path that's full of hardship, and weariness. He does the steering, especially when you are tired and helpless with making the difficult adult decisions of life.

Even in the unending shadows of death’s darkness, I am not overcome by fear. Because You are with me in those dark moments, near with Your protection and guidance; I am comforted (Verse 4)

Even when Murphy's Law starts happening, and everything that can go wrong goes wrong, and there's no glimmer of hope in sight......even then, you are not overcome by fear. Why? Because YOU KNOW He is there even in those moments. And because in His presence is protection and guidance, why should you fear? Instead, you should be comforted, because you ARE comforted

You spread out a table before me, provisions in the midst of attack from my enemies; You care for all my needs, anointing my head with soothing, fragrant oil, filling my cup again and again with Your grace (Verse 5)

Smack in the middle of hell's attack on your life, He gives you provisions. Every need you have is cared for. His oil of anointing is flowing in your life. Not just flowing, but overflowing and running over. This is the truth. You must therefore stir up that oil of anointing in your life for it to flow, fill your life, and overflow into the lives of people and situations you're connected with.

Certainly Your faithful protection and loving provision will pursue me where I go, always, everywhere. I will always be with the Eternal, in Your house forever (Verse 6)

Ha! Faithful protection - meaning the protection is committed to keeping you safe. Loving provision - meaning a sense of providence that's looking out for you, better than you can for yourself. These two are not only with you, but eagerly pursuing you everywhere you go. You are never ever without these two. Hallelujah! And because of that, you will forever dwell in His presence, in His habitation, and in His dwelling!

Saturday, January 21, 2017

My thoughts on Eddie Long

I told myself I wasn't going to talk about Eddie Long, because i respect the anointing that was on his life, even though I didn't agree with some of his ways. But the bible did not whitewash David, Saul, Samson, Jonah, etcs issues. It did not deny and repress them. It stated them, without condemnation. So we should be able to address the discrepancies regarding Eddie Long with integrity. Just sweeping them under the carpet and pretending they never existed is the same culture that enables predators, molesters, and even rapists to thrive on the pulpit (not that Eddie Long was any of these)
I am a rape survivor, and my violators ARE active in church and have never admitted their crime. It is this same culture of denying whats in your face that makes it flourish.
Again: I AM NOT CONDEMNING OR VILIFYING EDDIE LONG! He was human with flaws, and anointed. But he had discrepancies in his life that contradicted his anti gay stance. If only he had been real about it. Unfortunately, being real about it would have been ministry suicide, so the apparent viable option was denial, repression, and a vehement attack on the very things he had a proclivity to. Sigh!

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